Debt is killing me, I could not fight my debt. It is too strong to be fought , too heavy to carry on, too difficult to be left behind. The debt is chasing me, trying to kill me gently. It hits my head into big headache, and makes me scare facing people. I really have no ability to take revenge or even hide, I just can run away from this enemy.
I used to be a soldier, a brave man in a uniform, ready to fight with any kind of creatures. Now I am just an old pensioner of an armed force, living with my wife in a rented house. I have no vehicle to ride on while having problem with my left leg.
When I am alone, I usually just stare at nothing, trying to reveal the mystery of the debt. The harder I try, the more difficult it be. I could not remember when was it started or where it was. It just happened out of my consciousness.
This is what I remember, I never borrow money for something luxurious, a fancy car, or a big house. It was just to pay school fee of my children, buying home appliances with installment, or just to fulfill the gap between my income and my family cost of living. No more than that.
But see what I get now, a bulk of debt which never been in my imagination. The amount is so huge that I will never been able to pay until I die. That's what I mean the debt is killing me.
